When You're unappreciated and overlooked- let go and fight for you and do you!


"In life, it's simply very okay for you to go left when many are going right. As long as what you do is right for you and it doesn't tap the few who believe in you on their wrong back", some ancient guru said it centuries ago.
As a boy growing, up until now I've never wanted people to doubt my dynamic ability to do something or to create a difference. And this explains it, in the early phase of my life - literally my educational time and background right from home to school, I know I've been an average person and not perfect as some human beings would think they are. Perhaps I performed and always do things to make sure that I get it right!
Not being liked or kinda underappreciated, still it doesn't make me stop to push and work hard for what I would term as my bedrock foundation for the next seeds coming forth after me. Without any  doubt that's how it's supposed to be: The life I been through (I was left in suspense, in my own world and it's something that keeps my "Dream Big" adrenaline burning time in time out).

 My personality will always gimme that broad space to never stop proving my self and to never stop doing what I think without any shadow of doubt I can Excel in. At some point, my instinct would tell me to do things my own way (doing me) like needing nobody, because that's how I grew up as a boy. Though sometimes it apparently proves me wrong - but Innocent likes fighting alone like super alone if only an outter assistance gets in! The man I came through used to tell me and my three siblings that one day, he will be chased same way Jones was casted out of the Minor Farm which which would later  turn into "Animal Farm".  It was all owing to some lynchpin missing between him and his offsprings. I wouldn't want that to happen to me - No! Grewing up the hard way, the Majje Majje-like way sometimes you go three days without food and nothing but you gotta wake up get ready for school and over the weekend you go and tilt the gardens.

 These are some images which are very hard to take away from an African boy-child or girl-child who experienced all these circumstances in their early phase of life, not even death! besides that, you've hardly had any mentorship pertaining your advance to the next stage of adulthood.
My first job experience, was being a mobile money operator - working for someone and working with a Co; I'm underappreciated and overlooked even when I work from 8 to 9pm and my balls freezing hot owing to sitting all day long. This has always made me a basic player - if I was a professional soccer player, basic is the best word that would describe me. Still, ain't giving up because I know what I want for me and for whosoever that will come after in my lineage. One of a few friends in my circle would always say : " when life cuts you deep and left you hurting, if to you that hope you had is still not burning! And the dreams you had are so tied and lost the meaning, and  you don't know if you'll ever find healing. Wait you going to make it because even the nights only last not for so long. Whatever you are facing, no matter how many times it's putting you down - keep on getting up and up again and again". Sometimes her words make me cry (I even wrote this with gallon of tears)

I can't get any deeper in all circumstances, experiences and all that I encountered in different vicinities in my still-going long life. Probably, all I can say is; they've doubted me, they've judged me, they've called me names, they've underappreciated me, they've shunned me - I would say all negative adjectives in this entire universe was stumped on me henceforth... No nothing to do with me from them. Apparently, none even have any single thought about me! Luckily enough, these are things I've encountered my whole lower (base) stage of my life, I don't live my life to impress or to please anybody not at all and I'll NEVER be that way.
Some sage said row your boat as I row mine so when we face any storm deep in the sea it is upon us to think about us - either to say let him sink or let me dive and pull him back, but life is just...( Ain't finishing this phrase) otherwise, no man is an island though I've always and still wanting to prove a man can be an island!

I AM AVERAGE, I AM INCOMPETENT, I AM NOTHING BUT A DOOMED HUMAN BEING - That's to you!
If PERFECTION was something we pay money for, I swear upon my life I'd spend millions of shillings or dollars  to be perfect!
CAUSE IF THEY DON'T KILL YOU, INA KUJENGA TUU ;) MMI NII GANGSTER.
Been hustling kotoka NGz ya Vasco Da Gaama!
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#InnoCrying

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